You better have been singing "ticket to ride" the day the I left.

What lies in the shadow of a statue?

He who will save/protect us all.

Today we saw Joseph Fiennes with his very pregnant wives and very plump canines at the pet store in West Hollywood. My sister, being the first to see him, immediately turned to look me in the face and say, "Sarah. Shakespeare." And I immediately thought, "I just wish he would just quote sonnets and whisper romantic verses from his plays to me." And then I remember it was just the actor who played him in Shakespeare in Love. I miss that movie. I love it. And I still love you.

I hate movies where someone gets a second chance because I know if you ever asked me I would give you a second chance. And I don't want to. But just because two people love each other doesn't mean they are supposed to be together. I don't know if we are. But I think we'll see in the end. One day.

"Yes, but we need you to understand that your father and I, we still love each other. Just because two people love each other doesn't mean they are supposed to be together."

"What if you are supposed to be together?" Juliet asks.

"We're not, honey."

"But how can you know for sure?"

"We just know. And, when you're a grown up, you'll understand."

I'm watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.

Just a few things currently on my mind:

I always love others that love others.
Please don't let this shit kill me.
Insomniaaaaa.
Darling, I want to destroy you.
Where to spend my summer?

Cool, I'm currently susceptible to irritability and insomnia. Cool. I would just like to sleep until December 20th when I wake up at home. I just want my body to be normal again. Normal for me at least, ie. 10 lbs lighter, leaner, toned.

Current resolution for the New Year: Normalcy.

I've had fun this semester, but never again. Not this hard.

Lauren made us write letters to ourselves at the beginning of the semester, and we just got them back. They're funny. Maybe I'll write about it next time.

ps. I feel like I just broke up with him. Oh wait..

I miss your brown eyes.

Taylor Swift, please stop writing about my life in your songs. Ugh. Kill me, please.

So confused about everything. I just want to go home. I want to be comfortable. I want to clear my head. I just want to be me. But I'm only me when I'm with you.

My mom will be happy to see that my hair is now black and I am about 7 lbs heavier. fml. lolz.

This is one of my favorite Avenged Sevenfold songs. And if I remember correctly, one of yours too.

I really want to do this. Like really really. Sigh.

I need to start being more honest with the people in my life that aren't my sister and Jess. And my mom.

I really wish you wouldn't think I was stupid. I just really think you're desperate. It's sad. But its your fault. So I'm not mad. Call me when you stop being a faggot.

So much to do, so little time.

-Laundry (including bed sheets)

-Write draft and final of Transcommodities paper

-Get back on track with derivatives before test on friday

-Clean room (I absolutely hate feeling like I live out of my bedroom)

-Get hair cut + dyed

-Buy more shampoo and conditioner

-Not have pneumonia anymore

This is all I can think of right now. And most of which I have to do within the next 2 weeks. And it stresses me out just thinking about it.

One last final word of advice: Ex's. Ruin. Everything.

Top--winter hair color? Bottom--summer? lolz. I feel like poop, and I think that my pneumonia should go away. Who the hell gets pneumonia is San Diego? And how?

Maybe I need sleeping pills again or something.

You are not my boyfriend, and I am okay with that.

This mistake won't be the end of us,
Stare into nothing, we are alive.

Don't watch me when I sleep. I hate it. There's only one person allowed to watch me in my sleep, and he is no longer in my life. So don't.

I just wish he were more like you.

I feel like I should be on Daytime TV hosting a show about moral support for young girls who have recently broken up with their long term boyfriend's for school/distance reasons.

If you were to ask me what I've been up to recently, to ask me how my life has been, you probably wouldn't believe me when I told you.

I never want to have to support my entire family. Seeing what my mother went through, I still don't know how she did it. But I never will.