Stranded in this spooky town

He took my heart, I think he took my soul.

You shimmy shook my bone, all in love, on my own. Do you think of me? Where am I now? Baby, where do I sleep?



<3

Le loup-garou.

I enjoy kicking people out of my life. I really do.

I'm glad you apologized. But I'm sorry I believed it. You think you understand that you've hurt me. But you'll never understand how.

Why you so speechless? Oh, oh.

I have the most vivid, horrific, terrifyingly gruesome dreams in the entire world. Sometimes I can't tell if I'm thinking it or if they're actually dreams. I figured if I were thinking it, it would be voluntary, and would stop when I wanted them too. But they don't.

Maybe I should look in to writing story-lines for slashers..

I'm so sick. Of this. I miss the sun. And it's warmth on my skin.

Winter here makes me realize just how alone I really am.

I need to get out of here. Or sleep. And a grapefruit.

Skinny is not sexy, and I've decided as of the New Year, I'm keeping my 10 lbs. I'm keeping it, but I want to go to the gym more often. Not to burn it. But you know, tone it. This sounds ridiculous.

Androgyny isn't sexy either, so I'm cutting that out as well.

I just want to be normal and sexy. And to find someone who knows how to please me. Remember how that's all you wanted to do? Like a little puppy. I don't want to train anyone anymore though. But I guess that's the only way. Sigh.

I just want to be treated like a lady, and not a piece of meat.



I suppose I'll just take the new year one day at a time. Like he always said. It really is the only way. One day/step at a time.

ps. I am also making a note to stay away from flavored vodka.

I think Benicio del Toro looks a lot like Lon Chaney Jr. But anyway, here are some fun things.






The dog's name is Moose and was on set with Lon Chaney Jr. for every film he ever made until he was run over in the Universal lot. :( I wish I had a German Shepherd that big. And Lon's already a pretty big guy....

I don't think anyone really understands how excited I am for this new Wolfman movie.

And so tonight on this New Year's Eve, I want nothing more than to die.

I don't know where else to look for you...Where are you? :(

I wish I didn't want to help so many damn people/things. That's why I never know what I want to do with my life. The only way I'll be able to do it all is if I become famous. haaha. I suppose it's a good thing that we're moving to Los Angeles in the summer then.

When I was little, I used to drink strawberry milk everyday after I came home from school. I don't think I will ever enjoy it as much as I did without you.

As of midnight tomorrow night, I will officially be starting my life without you.


"The mediator between brain and muscle must be the heart."

No, it's not home here without you. Yes, I'm just visiting. This isn't my home anymore.

Every day I wake up here feeling weaker and weaker.

Oh, you really miss me? That's funny, because I don't really miss you. Hm.

No, that was mean. I miss you, just..like how I miss my girls. You're a good kid. Just not a good boyfriend. Two girls is not better than one. Especially with me. That shit don't fly.

Diana is falling in love with a boy exactly like you. For the exact reasons I did. And I'm not sure whether or not I should tell her. The only difference is that he is full Italian, and actually majored in philosophy. He went to/finished school.

It's good to finally reunited with my girls. How much I've missed them. Perhaps more than I've missed you.

I hate when people who really aren't important act like they are. To me, at least. It's quite unfortunate. Open your eyes.

If my vanity doesn't kill me, then tomorrow will.

Theme of the day: ferocity.

I can't belive what you said to me
Last night when we were alone
You threw your hands up
Baby you gave up, you gave up

I can't believe how you looked at me
With your James Dean glossy eyes
In your tight jeans with your long hair
And your cigarette stained lies

Could we fix you, if you broke?
And is your punch line just a joke?

I'll never talk again
Oh boy you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless, so speechless

I can't believe how you slurred at me
With your half wired broken jaw
You popped my heart seams
On my bubble dreams, bubble dreams

I can't believe how you looked at me
With your Johnnie Walker eyes
He's gonna get you and after he's through
There's gonna be no love left to rye

And I know that it's complicated
But I'm a loser in love
So baby raise a glass to mend
All the broken hearts
Of all my wrecked up friends

I'll never talk again
Oh boy you've left me speechless
Youve left me speechless so speechless

I'll never love again,
Oh friend you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless, so speechless

How?

And after all the drinks and bars that we've been to
Would you give it all up?
Could I give it all up for you?

And after all the boys and girls that we've been through
Would you give it all up?
Could you give it all up?

If I promise to you boy
That I'll never talk again
And I'll never love again
I'll never write a song
Won't even sing along

I'll never love again
So speechless
You left me speechless, so speechless
Why you so speechless, so speechless?

Will you ever talk again?
Oh boy, why you so speechless?
You've left me speechless

Some men may follow me
But you choose "death and company"
Why you so speechless?



...just wait 'til you hear mine. This song's about you and me. She even gets in the part about your stupid broken jaw.

It was good to see that smile of yours I've been dying so long to see.
And I'm glad that it was because of me. It seems like ages since I've seen that smile.
So unique, so genuine.
People who don't know you might think that you were angry, but I know that it's just you trying to hold back.
You always held back. Your emotions, your love. I hated it. I hate you for it.
I miss you loving me, and I miss loving you.
But it's probably for the better, no matter how hard I try to convince you and myself.
I hate how you shut me out. And I wish you wouldn't.
Just know that I loved you before and I always will.
No matter what we've been through. Nothing will ever change that.

Be safe, and be good.
Yours always.

It's almost as if I never left.

You better have been singing "ticket to ride" the day the I left.