Elsa Lanchester: The Bride.


"The monster. It's alive."

I was trying to not distinguish myself from every female musician with a guitar, because well, quite frankly my music reminds me of if Marie Digby had a baby with Courtney Love and Alanis Morrisette , and it turned out being indie and goth at the same time, but with traces of Etta James influence. But that doesn't quite make sense now, does it? So I think I win. For now at least. Afterall, you are your worst critic.

It's funny, I absolutely hate everything I write sometimes. But then other times I hear them, and I actually like it.

Working on another. Hopefully it doesn't get in the way of studying for finals. There are note enough hours in the day for both, unfortunately. Not enough hours for listening to music, writing music, singing, class, studying, watching movies, drawing, going to the gym, working on my resume and portfolio, practicing and designing, amongst other things. So busy, it's hard to breathe. At least I'm not wasting my breath and energy on you.

Anyway, less than a week until spring break. :)

"I don't want to go to hell, but if I do it'll be 'cuz of you. My hearts on fire."

Original.

I'm bad for business and relationships because I hate staying in one place for too long.

Been working on my resume to try to earn my place in society.

Sweet Lady Liberty
You are the lost though you are free
And what hides beneath?
Can't tell the wolves from the sheep.

I miss feeling loved by you. I miss seeing that smile on your stupid face and knowing that I'm the one that put it there. And no one else. I miss being absolutely certain about something that I could bet my life on it. I miss you more than you'll ever know, and feeling like I belong somewhere. I know I don't belong anywhere.

I've always been my own boss. Can't imagine it any other way.

It's relieving to know that you are now once again 3,000 miles away from me. I did not sign up for you to be any less than that. I did not come here for that. So thank you for getting off my coast. Faggot.

Aand I went on a date on friday. With a white boy. Wtf. Hahah. Hah. And I'm crushin'. Kinda. We'll see what happens. But if anything does, Mom will kill me. Oh man. He's an artist though, making/earning a living, what can she expect?

Life, thank you for sending me people that make me feel beautiful, loved, and wanted every time I'm feelin' down and out.

How come I got stuck with the asshole? He treats me like a princess, tells me I'm beautiful and that I shouldn't take shit from you ever, not to mention before he goes to bed he tells me, "i love and miss you more and more every day." How come Cassie couldn't do what she promised and set me up with the good one? Oh yeah, because she's a bitch, forgot.

Just gotta deal with what I have in front of me, I guess. But it's okay though. Tattoo apprentice at our shop? Yes, please.

I wish Trevor wouldn't draw pictures of me....yeah, weird.

My girlfriends and I like to have little contests to see who's ex is the worst. And I always seem to win.

And I always tried to play it off like you weren't a bad guy...

It's always nice to know that there are people in existence that are able to give me butterflies.

You give yourself WAY too much credit. :P

I've been working out way more than I ever have in my entire life. Even when I was playing sports, I did not run and train and climb as much as I do now. And I love it. But I'm starting to obsess over it. You don't want to see me when I have to miss a day at the gym. And I rarely miss a day. Even when I'm sick. Damn. This new me is kinda bomb. One side of me that I don't mind.

duckie go down the hole. yes, she does.

Some things will never change.



"Brother" by Murder By Death

That boy is a monster.


"Monster" by Lady Gaga

One day, again. Hopefully sooner than later. <3

Every time I tell myself I'm not going to care about my weight, what I eat, and what I look like, I look in the mirror and decide that I should. My body is not meant to be fat. I hate when I can tell even the slightest millimeter gained on my arms. So I'm going to the gym starting this week not only on my regular days, but on the weekends too. FTW.

Also, my horoscope for today says,

"Health needs care. All commitments and financial transactions need to be handled carefully. Health of an elderly person causes some worry. Interference of others will cause frictions. Don't take your partners for granted. If travelling make sure you carry all-important documents."

And therefore, I know what I'm doing this weekend and what I'm not.