New obsession: Dr. Dog.

Baby, I'm howlin' for you.

When I'm with him, no one else in the world exists but us. When he looks at me, I melt inside. He looks at me the way you used to.

He's really the only person that can keep up with me right now. Please, can we keep this moving smoothly? I've been trying so hard to take this slow, but I really don't want to. Hm..

God, I haven't felt like this in years. It's a little bizarre how much him and I get along. Murder by Death, Westerns, special effects make-up, zombies, movies in general, and the list goes on and on. These are specifically just the most important ones to me right now. Oh! And whisky. The man loves to drink just as much as I do. Joking about poppin' a xanax after the movie. Who does that? Other than me, at least. God, we can we just cut the bullshit and fast forward to next year. Ugh.

Somewhere between here and there, I made a pact with the devil.

I know I'm only 19, but I feel so fucking old.

To this day, no one has ever made me feel as beautiful when they look at me, as you do. But nothing's ever easy now, is it?

You (2010)

1. Speechless - Lady Gaga
2. A Place to Hide - White Lies
3. Gimme Danger - Iggy & the Stooges
4. Come What May - Moulin Rouge Soundtrack
5. Now That I Know - Devendra Banhart
6. Rough Hands - alexisonfire
7. Troubled Waters - Cat Power
8. Your Touch - Black Keys

I haven't soberly gotten into a fist fight since I was a little girl.

Tonight my cousin told me to watch out for older guys. But of course, I said. Boys will always be boys.

I need a bearded man to shower me with gifts and jack daniels in my life. Santa please!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

I've always wanted to be in a western film. I think I'd like to produce my short over the summer. But we'll see. I am also very interested in seeing this movie.

"This heroine has got me by the soul. It's taken me to places Jesus wouldn't dare to go."

Sometimes I forget that Moose isn't around anymore. I miss him so much.

I'm in a really dark place right now, and believe me, I don't like it that you lighten it up.

My friend wants to help me draw up a tribute tattoo for Moose. I've got the idea of it and such, I just need the talent, and that's where Peter comes in. This could most likely be the most helpful thing next to actually being there for someone. And I've known this kid for about 2 months maybe. It's reassuring to know I'm not making anymore shitty friends.

Also, eventually I will get a bunch of cats and name them after beer. Like Yuengling, Stella, and Pabst.

All I wanted to do was to not be alone. Everyone will tell you that they're so damn sorry, but they're clearly not sorry enough to be there for you when you need them the most.

RIP Moose, My Little Man.
5/15/02-11/24/10

You were the best dog I could have ever asked for. My original partner in crime. I know you knew how much I loved you, and you loved me back unconditionally. Thank you. You were always the brightest star in my sky. I'm sorry I couldn't be there when times got tough, I hope you know I wanted to be. I never wanted it to end up this way, I'm sorry. I wish you could've seen what I have here now, you would love it, especially in LA. Please, be good in Heaven. No picking fights with the big dogs, or begging Lola to drop a slice of bread for you on the ground. Soak up some sun for me. I love you.

Bringing back the Western is a good choice.

My life feels like it's turning into one giant bad decision.