My ex is from Austin, Texas. Gaby's new man is from Austin, Texas. My previous ex is currently in Austin, Texas. And yet, all I can think about are all the grimey shit that goes on down there. And we all thought Virginia was bad. At least we only smoked pot for the most part. So glad I never grew up in Texas.

"Don't let him get the best of you. Don't let him win."

It feels as if we never met and that I'm okay with it. Like you're just somebody else I never knew.

Yeah, sometimes I miss you. But what you made it become is just not worth throwing my life away for you.

I just want my normal life back again. None of this constantly looking over my shoulder business.

Yeah, sometimes I miss you. But what you made it become is just not worth throwing my life away for you.

Took off my flannel today in class and one of my classmates yells out, "Sarah! Did you lose weight?!" I sharply replied with, "Yes, I just got out of one of the worst relationships of my life. I lost weight," in my head. But actually tell her, "Uhh yeah, but not on purpose." Nobody told me I looked like a skeleton until I went into the H&M fitting room to try on clothes and I saw it for myself. To letting things you shouldn't get the best of you.

I heard you calling my name outside my window, most likely drunk. I know it was you. I hated it because I wanted so badly to yell back, "____?" but my voice was caught deep down in my throat. And after it all, there was still nothing I could do.

"This is cool..she was short, and kinda crazy." -Bobby describing the Owner of the Mystery House in San Jose, CA.

What if the most important thing for me to do [show them] is to submit.

The first thing when I wake up and the last before I go to bed are still the hardest. Yet it's only been a week. During those times he's all I see, but it's getting easier.

Since the other day, I noticed Tinkerbell will no longer let me out of her sight. She kisses my bruises and scratches before bed and in the morning whem we wake. She kisses my pain away. She knows. It's as if she feels guilty for not being there to protect me when it happened. But if anything, I'm glad she wasn't because then she probably wouldn't be here with me right now.

I just don't want to almost get arrested, if we start talking again.. :\

Maybe I can't really listen to The Beatles anymore. And maybe I will always hear "Hey Joe" wrong. But we were never supposed to be, it was just all too easy.

When you bought us ice-cream in the park and said, "It looked good in Spider-Man."

To having nowhere else to walk to in the middle of night except straight to the bars.

You know, seeing as I survived my second abusive relationship. I feel fine.

Hello 4am and a pain that don't ever go away.

Because maybe it was you the whole time who was keeping me grounded.

When everything in your life becomes so overwhelmingly unsure, nothing makes sense anymore, thoughts don't form, the strongest people in your life are just as broken as you, stories don't add up, and nothing stays consistent minus the fact that you make the wrong choices. I feel like I'm digging myself into a grave, and there's nothing that'll get me out but my own willpower, that I spent all of keeping us alive.

The I-80 at night is like traveling through space. My producers are awesome.

The part where your dog almost takes off your boyfriends' hand..

So I complain a lot, I know I do. And yes, maybe he seems terrible. But until he proves to me otherwise, every man is evil and up to no good. But he's been surprising me every day since the last time I wrote. And things were so lovely for a while, but I'd hate to call them one thing if it meant that those times were over. This love is cosmic. And it's only growing. And I know we're getting restless. We're both so terrified of things growing to a certain point and getting comfortable, because we're tauruses and all we want is to be comfortable, but once we get there, we just snap. I'm afraid. I'm so afraid of reaching that point of no return. But who knows, maybe I'm just being usual paranoid self. Who knows.

Drinking wine in the dark, contemplating this issue. I never met anyone with a worse drug habit than me, until I met you. And for the first time in my life, I realize that the shit only gets in the way.

When your lovers love you more than your love loves you.