Saturday, February 6, 2010

I'm not the same girl I was when we met.

my boyfriend



You want nothing to do with me. I don't know what to do with you...'Cause you don't know what you do to me.

Baby, is this love for real? Let me in your arms to feel--the beating of your heart baby.

Friday, February 5, 2010

Your perfect match is someone who is encouraging, friendly and genuine. This type of person is a peacemaker and while they are not super ambitious, they want to make sure that the people around them are well taken care of and appreciated. They are happy to let you take the leadership role in the relationship and are very interested in how you are feeling at all times. They are very in tune with their emotions, seek balance in their life and feel happiest when things around them are calm. They lead with their heart, rather than their head so your ability to be well-grounded and level-headed will make you the perfect team. This person will always accept you for who you are, never demanding more and will love you passionately and fully. The top traits they are looking for in a mate are: sensitivity, ambition (they realize that it is important and admire you for it) and stability. You will never need to wonder if they love you as the gifts, cards and phone calls just to "see how you are feeling today" will come pouring in.

That's what you used to be like.
I. can't. really. breathe.

Thursday, February 4, 2010


Oh she's just fabulous.








I think I can make it by swimsuit season...damn, I really want plastic surgery.
It's because of you that there are many things I can no longer do anymore, such as wear boots and paint my finger nails a different color from my toes. So maybe a pair of boots and a tattoo will help me get over you. I'm tired of this drinking/smoking every night to not care. Waking up in the morning is always the worst when you're hungover and already don't want to get out of bed. I'm becoming an emotional drunk, and I don't like it one bit. So yes, maybe a new pair of boots, a new jacket, and a piercing or tattoo will help me get over you.

Going to bed and waking up in the morning is always the worst part of my day. That's probably why I'm so sick.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

I hate Valentine's Day. I always have. Even when we were together. Ugh, I don't want to be like this anymore. There are so many thing I want to say to you, but I can't. I miss you so much. It isn't fair that I have to stay here and waste away, while I could be doing something I want to be doing like spending just even an hour lying in bed with you. I hate when you tell me to find some other boy to lie down with, to feel comfortable with, because I don't want to. I don't want anyone else. So stop trying to force me.

Ohh, it's just one of those days.

Monday, February 1, 2010

I dare you to fall in love with me. I promise I won't love you back.
"The suburban woman--she was the dream of young American women and the envy of women all over the world. She was healthy, beautiful, educated, concerned only about her husband, her children, her home. She had found true feminine fulfillment, free to choose automobiles, clothes, appliances, supermarkets; she had everything that women everywhere dreamed of."

From The Feminine Mystique, 1963


Does she know how you told me you'd hold me until you died, till you died. But you're still alive.