"It's like you're screaming, and no one can hear
You almost feel ashamed
That someone could be that important
That without them, you feel like nothing
No one will ever understand how much it hurts
You feel hopeless; like nothing can save you
And when it's over, and it's gone
You almost wish that you could have all that bad stuff back
Just so that you could have the good."

The Sun & Stars. When you have to lie to your soul-mate that you're seeing someone, to see if they actually still care and love you, and you find out that they do in fact still love you, but for some reason you try to make them believe that you don't, even though they've been accusing you the past couple of weeks that you're still in love with them because they didn't want you to be anymore. You just have to stop. This is when I definitely realized that we just can't be together right now. And believe me when I say I'm dying inside because of it. I just can't be running in circles anymore. I pray the universe one day brings us back together, but not like before, healthier, happier, the best we've ever been. But just together. Forever. -The Moon

Maybe tomorrow I'll wake up without anymore tears...

Also, thanks for finally telling me the difference between our relationship and what your relationship was with Leah. I always thought you were different too. <3

I'm okay, I just want to get high. We talked, or I tried to talk to him, he couldn't calm down. And I saw a really really broken side of him..even more broken than me...he's so broken and hurt and there's nothing I can do or say that can fix him right now..maybe in a couple months down the road. But there's nothing I can do for him now.
His words were all in circles, he couldn't remember things he just said maybe 5 minutes before. He just kept accusing me of being crazy, saying nothing I said made sense. He's lost, stuck somewhere. I want to help him so bad but I can't. Not right now.

It's just all so funny because he reminds me of how I was when Pablo and I were together. But I am Pablo in this one.

I have the attention of too many men without giving them anything in return. It grows difficult battling my demons lately, I could hurt you so bad if I wanted to, or have somebody else do it. My heart is so full of vengeance, but only because I want you to be mine. And for me to be yours, like we once were. You were the only who was truly just as fucked up as I, obviously an unhealthy situation, but the point of the story is that you and I are one in the same. I have contemplated many a time what I would do if I ever set foot in the same room as my other half, what would I do or say. Well I believe I have, and I messed up during my chance, so you better believe I'm going to do anything I can to get you back. But if you knew anything about the amount of times I have been offered to have you "taken care of," you'd most definitely be mine.