I've decided that when my time is up, I want the last thing I see to be the middle of nowhere in Arizona. With my gun collection and my dogs. No humans allowed, whatsoever. The people that live there are kinda, really dumb. Sorry, world. Aaand I just might become a Park Ranger.

And I've been seeing so many beautiful dogs lately. Ones that I had never EVER seen before in person in my life.

Like one of these.


And one of these.


I just about died when I saw both of them. Though it's hard to believe that the Dogue de Bordeaux would grow up to be breed standard. Because the Corso I saw was about 1 1/2 years old and his feet were more than double the Bordeaux's size. But who knows. Although, it was at one of those puppy mill stores after all.

I have a friend that I confide in as if she were the Virgin Mary.

I'm trying not to [get discouraged]. It just sucks, it's like everyone back home wants me to come back home because it's like, "well, i'm stuck here, so you should be stuck here too!" I feel like I have absolutely no support from anyone back home, except for maybe my mom and she's here with me right now. Well, I have support from one you-know-who and that's not really someone I want/need support from. Ugh, and then I miss Moose. So that's one thing that would keep me sane, but its not like I can stay shut away in my house all day just chillin' with my dog..and then I don't even think my old job will take me back because my old manager left. So that's more reason to stay out here. I dunno. I just have a lot on my plate as you can see. I just don't want to go home and then be stuck at square one again, you know? Become the person I was way back during last summer. Hmm..breathe, Sarah, breathe.

I fell in love with Arizona. And I bet you didn't know that I love this song. Because I've got something that will knock all your pride aside.