Drinking wine in the dark, contemplating this issue. I never met anyone with a worse drug habit than me, until I met you. And for the first time in my life, I realize that the shit only gets in the way.

When your lovers love you more than your love loves you.

Finally have my stripes back..

Why do we let our lovers walk all over us?

Today I felt loved for the first time in weeks. Months. Neither of us know what we're doing, but that's okay. For the first time in a while, things are okay. Better than okay. I will try not to get too comfortable.

"If a Jasmine Tree person can find someone who can help them to become a little more optimistic and show them the true beauty of life, they will remain faithful to them for the rest of their life."

I can teach you how to ruin your life and your relationships with everyone around you.

The trouble I get myself into!

I really hurt him and this time I actually care

I got too comfortable.

Of course, here I am getting so comfortable with him. I am terrified.

For once I feel stronger than somebody else in my life, but why him? So I can teach myself that I am worth more and stronger than I think.

When your "boyfriend" says he can tell that you "like" him "a lot." And you laugh and ask, "Oh yeah, what else can you 'tell'?" It's best he thinks he's still in control. He'll never get too close.

Now you're just somebody that I used to know.

Because no one else can make you feel like I can.

The actual moment I realize you mean more to me than I want you to. Daydreaming of being in love again. And subconsciously dreading the day.

Just give in to me.

It's everything about you. And the fact that I'd so willingly drop everything if it meant I could have you. Way back when we would let ourselves love one another.

In the back of your truck with the radio on.

And love was easy,
Just laying on a river bank all night counting the stars,
Love was easy,
As that feeling we found in the back seat of my car,
Even in the dark,
Love was easy,
When we didn't make it so hard.

Snapped this photo of myself in a recent morning when I caught myself smiling. I had to see if it was real.

And for every time I feel empty, I tell my dog I love her. With the amount that I tell her, she always feels loved. And I always feel loved back.

To my family, my friends, my dog, my love. I love you. And don't you forget it.

And this is why I do not leave my apartment.

"Don't ever trust a guy who tells you he's never going to hurt you" - My Abusive Ex, funny how the world goes round.