I absolutely hate good-byes. Just the entire meaning of it as the "last time I will ever see you." And I think that is what scares me the most. No doubt, I still love you, a little part of me always will. But it's not the "not being with you" part that paralyzes me into depression, its the thought that each time I see you could possibly be the last. I don't think I could stand not seeing or hearing from you ever again. I know that I wouldn't be able to stand it. Especially if there was something I could do to prevent it.