Skinny is not sexy, and I've decided as of the New Year, I'm keeping my 10 lbs. I'm keeping it, but I want to go to the gym more often. Not to burn it. But you know, tone it. This sounds ridiculous.

Androgyny isn't sexy either, so I'm cutting that out as well.

I just want to be normal and sexy. And to find someone who knows how to please me. Remember how that's all you wanted to do? Like a little puppy. I don't want to train anyone anymore though. But I guess that's the only way. Sigh.

I just want to be treated like a lady, and not a piece of meat.



I suppose I'll just take the new year one day at a time. Like he always said. It really is the only way. One day/step at a time.

ps. I am also making a note to stay away from flavored vodka.