Cannot sleep at all. Too much on my mind. Why is it that the moment I try to forget about you, someone else pops into my life like Trevor, or Vega. I just want to disappear for a while. I'm okay with just looking and admiring. Being caught off guard when a cute boy tries to talk to me. The butterflies in my stomach. But I don't want anything from it. It's just meaningless. And I'm fine with that. I don't know why this bothers me so much. I suppose I've just gotten so used to not saying no.

I need a break. From life.