I can't tell anyone that I miss them because it makes me feel like I'm giving up. I've made it so far, 3000 miles away from home just about, but you know, there are some times that I just want to go back. I wish I was in high school again. Things were so good when I was in high school, and now I just feel like I don't know what the fuck I'm doing.

I suppose the point of this is me saying that I miss you. You as in everyone from home. And as much as I'd love to come home, I can't. And I won't. I'm not supposed to be there. And as of right now, I'm not supposed to be in San Diego, but I'm slowly finding out where I'm supposed to be.



I heard this song outside of starbucks after we got off the phone. And I'm sorry. I wish I wasn't like this, but I am. And I wish you weren't this way either, but there's nothing I can do about it. No matter how hard I try.