You know, thinking about it, It's been a while since I've...well, laughed really. Some of the girls at work will try to talk to me, and maybe that's why people gossip. But they'll try to talk to me, and they'll say something that they think is really funny, and I just kind of try to awkwardly fake my laugh or pretend I didn't hear them. It's just sort of impossible really. I mean, unless its scripted or from a movie or something. Sure, I'll get a chuckle or two in there. But it's more of a "HA" than anything else. A sound illustrating entertainment or being entertained. I couldn't bring myself to finish reading the JD Salinger pick because I couldn't help but feel sorry for him about how sad and pathetic and depressed he is. If you notice, I will pick out things in anything that remind me of myself, and I will hate them. It's always something that I've done, ever since I was little. Ever since I can remember really. But I saw too much of myself in him especially as of right now, in my current "state." It is a full moon after all. I'll try to keep reading, but it's so difficult because it's almost as if ever sentence he just talks about feeling so lousy and depressed, thinking back on his girl that he missed out on. I'm sure there's a real coming of age ending, but I don't know. I'll finish it though. Eventually.