I used to think we could reach each others thoughts because if we were talking and I thought long and hard enough, you would ask or say exactly what I was thinking you would say. Maybe I just guessed long enough in my head to be right. But sometimes now I will just sit by myself, and pretend that I'm talking to you, hoping that somewhere you are doing the same thing. I feel like the closer I get to leaving, the more and more I miss you. It's times like tonight where I am almost reluctant to go out because I think about what it would have been like if we went together, because I know, despite what you think, we would have a good time together. Probably an even better time than I am going to have.

My mom keeps telling me to not be upset when I go to work because it will keep me busy. But everything there reminds me of you. Sneaking you in to see all the pets, you standing outside with me when I walk the dogs, making sure that none of them kill me, calling you while I fold laundry, or not being able to hear you when I'm in the kennel, texting you when I'm waiting in the hallway to help doctors. Thank you for not ignoring me and my calls. I just want us to be okay again because right now, I miss you so much.